Who wrote i hate myself for loving you12/30/2023 ![]() ![]() It’s a process but that doesn’t make implosion any easier to recover from. I’m still learning to love just as I am learning that I am loved. I didn’t invent the mess that is my life by myself. I know what it’s like to be “loved” by people who hate themselves. I used to think it didn’t matter how I treated myself but I was reminded that I am to love my neighbor as I love myself. I’ve been trying to learn to love me like he does but I’m not all that successful. The screaming vile hatred of me for me was cut down by a voice that reminded me that I was loved by the one who made me – just like I am – and who is not ashamed of me because He is in process of saving me from myself has been since before I even knew I was broken. I want to walk but I run back to you, that’s whyĪnd listened to it ‘til my ears bled (not literally of course). I crashed and burned on the inside and I found myself singing along with Joan Jett:Ĭan’t break free from the things that you do. And still there are days like today when I do something wrong, make a mistake – I’m not talking about sin here just poor judgement, bad decisions mixed with fear – and the door is opened for the voices to start yelling in my head again. I’ve been doing that now for I don’t know 26 or 27 years. I learned how to grow up, slowly and painfully. After the disaster I had to learn to see the voices for the unreality that they were. It took disaster, an implosion to be exact, to get me to go toe to toe with the voices: The lies, accusations, criticisms, sarcasm and pessimism that formed my early days. They were the reason I learned to get high, get numb, get deaf…they never went away but I learned to drown them out with numbness and ZZ Top in the headphones turned to 11. Never good enough, never worth anything at least that’s what the voices used to say. That used to be life 24/7 back when I was a child. It was one of those mornings when the old me rises from the dead and tries to beat the hell back into me. It doesn't end well.I had one of those mornings the other day, ok the morning of this day. Eddie, however, feels that Steve is getting a bit too close with Nancy and confronts Steve about it. Everyone brought a movie and it's a great evening. Nancy has orchestrated the perfect movie marathon and invited Jonathan to join them. eddie get back in here dustin's mother is having a panic attack.steve has something he'd like to share with the class.Language: English Words: 2,396 Chapters: 1/1 Comments: 4 Kudos: 285 Bookmarks: 10 Hits: 2271 Steve wants the ground to open up and swallow him. The girls pick flowers while Steve and Eddie talks. i cant believe i wrote steven in the summary anyway its fixedĪfter having seen Steve's favourite movie of all time, the group goes out into the woods.eddie really really wants to kiss steve.nancy picks flowers for jonathan so he's mentioned.Language: English Words: 3,351 Chapters: 1/1 Comments: 8 Kudos: 335 Bookmarks: 18 Hits: 3824 Nancy then takes Robin with her and leaves him alone with Eddie. It seems his friends have invaded his house to make sure he's okay. Steve has a nightmare in the night and takes shelter in the tub. can you believe they haven't kissed yet.do i think robin would leave so easily no but eddie's got this.Language: English Words: 1,086 Chapters: 1/1 Comments: 6 Kudos: 282 Bookmarks: 9 Hits: 2873 What does it take to get these two together? Nancy is way in over her head. Robin has an interesting talk with her boys at Family Video and realises that they're both stupid and possibly deaf when Steve drops a comment about Corroded Coffin and Eddie doesn't pick up on it because he's an idiot. more focused on robin's panic than the steddie of it all.alternate title she knows and i know she knows.He shoots and he scores and the crowd goes wild Language: English Words: 1,895 Chapters: 1/1 Comments: 2 Kudos: 345 Bookmarks: 12 Hits: 4230 And Steve, well, Steve wouldn't ever turn Nancy down now, would he? So the four end up at a diner, at Nancy's suggestion, but she's flirting with Eddie and Robin is losing her mind. steve is chill because nothing phases himĮddie would never decline an invite from Steve.Robin Buckley & Eddie Munson & Nancy Wheeler.Language: English Words: 1,177 Chapters: 1/1 Comments: 10 Kudos: 417 Bookmarks: 19 Hits: 4966 He really doesn't like it when Jonathan questions why he's looking at Eddie. Nancy has invited the teen gang for an outing in the mall but Steve's on the fence and doesn't really like it. alternative title when i look at him and he doesn't look at me thank fck.is that what the kids are calling it these days.last three characters don't have a big role.Pluttskutt Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
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